Adding to the stories

Back after a loooooooooooonggggggggg time!
What happened in between is to follow, maybe? well there are lotsa things all around anyway.

So what got me back in a snap? The 55 word story that's everyone's being tagged with.I wasn't tagged, but I thought it would be nice to think of a 55 word story. And believe me there were so many amazing ones that I read. Thought lets see if I can come up with anything close to a story in the 5 min break I had at work.
And this is what I came up with :-)


Tchk tchk tchk! was all the noise she heard in the dark of the night, as she lay on her bed. It’s neither the clock nor dripping water, she thought! A bomb ticking? Yes, the explosive was in her head, counting down how much she missed him, until it exploded as liquid in her eyes.


And I would love to tag some people with real talent to give us some intersting reading. And the names are:

Hrishi
Aditi
Yogesh
Ganesh (Hrishi, maybe u should tell him that I tagged him. Coz of course we don't know each other)
Missy
Nitin

Well thats it for now. Will be back on the weekend. It's friday night and I need to chillax now.

Walnut Creek

This weekend I went around town a bit. I enjoyed doing what I've been dying to do..Take Pictures. Didn't manage to get any that would satisfy my soul- the photographer that I consider myself to be. Thanks to my roomie who just was being such a baby- she refused to walk more than a mile. Sigh! I should have stepped out alone. She's nice but she's not enthusiastic company- u know what I mean. Talk about being fit - and she'll happily tell me that I need to seriously consider going to the Gym everyday. Well I can walk 5 miles and not get tired.
Anyway these trivial things aside, I enjoyed romping around town. Downtown has that small country side look with townhomes, small 2 story buildings for most business/commercial places. Cool tree lined main roads, sparse traffic (it was sunday afternoon) ,clear blue skies touching bare, dry mountain peaks (hills in some places), bright blossoms here and there, gave it a very picture perfect 18th century look. I so wanted a bike to ride through the quiet streets and then finally settle for a corner street side cafe with a nice book to read and my camera.One weekend I will do that-hopefully soon. You see the week is getting busier, work's loading up and you never know when all you want to do on a weekend is make up for all the sleep you missed during the week.
For a change I will cut it short here. More comin up. Here are some of the pictures I took the other day, in case you are interested.

http://photos.yahoo.com/samira1424

Till next time so long!

Killer on the move!

I found this quiz on somebody's blog. Sadly I closed the window before I got the name right. I will trace it down later but for now thought of posting the results. Its pretty interesting. "What type of killer are you?"- that's the quiz. I am curious to see the results when u all take it.. plz do share.
Here's my quiz result:

You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect. You
are not really the stereotypical hero, but you
do fight for good. Just in your own way. For
you, it is most certainly okay to kill an evil
person, if it is for justice and peace. You
also don't belive in mourning all the time and
think that once you've hit a bad stage in life
you just have to get up again. It's pointless
to concentrate on emotional pain and better to
just get on with everything. You also are a
down to earth type of person and think before
you act. Impulsive people may annoy you
somewhat.

Main weapon: Sword
Quote: "Always do the right thing.
This will gratify some people and astonish the
rest" -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile


What Type of Killer Are You?


Looking forward to seeing other results posted here.By the way I am now on a quiz spree, so look forward to lots of these in the next couple days.

Of Complexities and Contentment

The ability to think and analyze is a virtue that is definitely appreciated. But this boon can be a bane. Life is as it is complicated and by analyzing and thinking about every small thing that happens, we only end up making it much more complex.
How I wish I could just live life with peace of mind. This has always been my goal to try to be happy with however anything is and be at peace with myself. Maybe that’s why I chose “aspiring4contentment” for my blog URL. It’s not very easy to be content but it’s attainable.
My mind is in a dilemma- should I be so content with everything that I keep neither desires nor ambitions nor anything? But then I am scared of being stagnant and dull. I want to enjoy life without stress, tensions and name it. The rollercoaster like ride with lots of ups and then downs makes me sick now. I want to take off and have a smooth flight...flight of fantasy...maybe. Be on a high, keep smiling, and at the same time have the adrenalin flowing providing the little needed excitement. Oh, I need to clarify for the sake of one of my friends, no dear; I am not talking about being high on dope and its kinds.
I don’t want to think about anything. I don’t want to strive to be like the most popular girl I know (high maintenance) nor like the dumb kinds I’ve seen (all broken down). I don’t want to keep thinking about how and when I will get a promotion nor about how much more money I need to buy that car which is much better than the current one. I don’t want to think about how much better I can get or things can be with that little extra effort thrown in. I don’t want to think about what I like or not like in people to decide if I want to be friends with them. Neither do I want to have an opinion about the things I love or not love about my friends or family members. How does it matter for most part, especially if their negativity doesn’t affect me in any way? Then why should I complain about something being bad or not right? I want to live in the present, enjoy it as much as I can.
But then everyday when I come home, it’s all about how life used to be good and why I had to grow up and why I keep thinking about the past and getting sad. The future I can plan but in trying to get there, I am living no life, it’s a mundane existence. When someone asks: “how r u?” I am so tempted to say “Existing”. Hope I can do something about it soon. My question is: Is it all worth the fight?
Don’t u hate it when you are thinking deep and you end up listening to a song that so takes you deeper into what you were trying not to think. I think I’ll just go and watch LOTR. That’s one book/movie I can read/watch for life and yet not call it boring.

P.S. I am waiting to find someone who’s equally enthusiastic about watching all the 3 parts of LOTR in one go. Anyone interested?

Coast to Coast

Finally I got down to writing AND publishing my post. Wanted to write so badly and never wrote it. No, I haven’t been lazy at all. Busy, well kinda. The past 2 weeks have been very eventful . Don’t know where to start..lets see
In the order that things happened:

Almost 2 weeks ago:
Got a JOB…Whew! More of a relief than happiness. Sadness prevails as well. Now you may wonder why?..coz getting the job involved a very painful procedure of getting trained, joining a consultant (who as usual like all desi consultants like to fleece u off ur money) and a lot more. In the end, I still have a JOB..yay!. The job is in California, close to San Francisco (sigh! It’s way too expensive man……but wow- it’s a wonderful place, dream location for so many people). All my friends and family are in the east coast and mid-west….I wish I got a job there. I don’t think I should complain though, atleast its better than being jobless. J Smile, Smile

The following weekend:
I go to Chicago- MY TOWN, for a kinda last visit before I join work. I have loadsa fun with all my friends. I feel so vulnerable leaving Chicago, friends. It’s like leaving a big part of what’s ME behind.

1 week ago:
Paperwork, Paperwork- It just wouldn’t end. The hunt begins for an apartment. That’s one hell of a task…either too expensive or way too small, far from transportation limited transportation (I wish , I wish I had a car..), share it with a crappy roommate or loads of decent roomies in one apartment (expensive to rent my own for the time being... expensive place, low salary, high tax, huge loan) Aaarrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhh.
Why did I have to be so career oriented, maybe I should just marry a rich guy (so that he can afford me and my loan J) and look after him, his house and then kids- easy way out of this whole mess.
But no I have a big Ego- I can’t just do nothing and spend someone else’s money.
Damn! it didn’t even stop here—I missed Home more than I did when I first came here.
I suddenly wanted to go back home for good. My brain by now is numb from all the thinking, need a break.. So I party a day before I leave for California..good food, good wine, good friends, good weather…hmm Good.

Next Weekend:
I have a crazy 10 hour flight to California. Flying Coast to Coast in the real sense. My flight Detroit (EST) to Chicago (CST); Chicago to Kansas City; Kansas City to Denver (MST); Denver to Oakland (PST). The airports were wonderful. The views too amazing. I fell in love with the lake when in Chicago, the mountains in Denver and the Valleys in California.
Denver held the most attraction for me. The long dark shadows of the mountains on the towns at the foothills, the clouds, thick n misty over the mountains, the bright sun amidst the clouds, the melting snow on the mountain peaks (yes, there still is a little snow on the peaks) held me captive.
Kansas City had a cute lil airport, small but homely look to it. Lots of blue eyed people there…I almost stepped on the streets, wanted to just go around the town and then take the next flight back to Chicago. Wish I could just live life visiting places, taking pictures and enjoy life, not worry about job, kids, money, food. Yeah but I’d like a partner who would love doing the same though. I need love to survive.
After a long long day, with no sleep what so ever since 2 days, I land in Oakland. Take a shuttle, check into a motel, call everyone I know coz I am so so so home sick and alone. Spoke for 3 hours with a friend in India. Oh did I say I was starving and was in that state till noon next day.

Spoke some more with friends and family next day. Was gearing for my first day of work emotionally. More about my work place later, but yes I am still very homesick, lonely, wish I had my friends here and of course my family. Oh Home Sweet Home! how I long for thee…

Continue to TAG?

My friend tagged me...and I had to fill this long questionnaire. So below is the questionnaire with my answers:

Three names I go by:
Sam
Samira
Soni

Three screen names:

Samiira
Samira
Emoer's sister (for very select people, actually just one:-) I know sounds sidey but I had to relate myself with some LOTR character)

Three things I like about myself:

Ability to think (and think logically...common sense)
That I don't easily get tired
Compatibility with most people I meet

Three things I don't like about myself:

That I don't have the voice nor talent to sing
Can be brutually honest
I am not Athletic anymore

Three things that scare me:
Not having a close friend
lizards
boredom

Three essentials:
Wonderful Parents
Means of communication (Phone/Internet)
Freshly laundered clothes

Three things I like in the opposite sex:
Ability to converse well
how cute they can be when they do manage to finally emote (even if they're drunk)
And some OOmph is definitely appreciated

Three things I want to do badly right now:
Get a job
Eat good food
Go on a road trip

Three careers I'm considering right now:
Systems/Network Administration
Photography
Event Management

Three places I'd love to go on vacation:

New Zealand
Venice
India

Three kids' names I like and why:

Dhruva- coz he's my fav. nephew
Rudra- just coz it sounds so classy
Niyati-just becoz

Three things to do before dying:
Learn to Dance well
Experience Motherhood
Make people around me smile

Three people to get to do this wonderful questionnaire:
Gauri
Hrishi
Priyesh

We never know how high we are

For some reasons, this has been on my mind all day today since I woke up.

We never know how high we are
Till we are called to rise;
And then, if we are true to plan,
Our statures touch the skies.

The heroism we recite
Would be a daily thing,
Did not ourselves the cubits warp
For fear to be king.

Cheers to one of the best poets ever..Emily Dickinson

LOVE…Life's Only Vital Emotion

The various people in one’s life make one feel special in a different way. These people are the ones you want to share all your emotions with. You want to relate every part of your life in some way with any one or all these people. They help you complete your circle of life.

The best part is that they don’t have to do much or be with you all the time, for you to feel that way about them. A simple smile, a Hello on the phone, just one touch, one look your way, or even just their presence makes you feel like you can overcome all troubles in life. Being around them makes you feel at home, puts your mind at peace and when you lay your head in their lap: you find heaven, you can sleep like a baby oblivious to every thing else. Such is the magic of LOVE.

It’s a simple emotion but when it rules it turns your life around a nice 180 degrees. That’s why I think it is very vital, coz it changes the way you might do anything. When it backs you up, you’re a guaranteed winner. When it ditches you, you lose a winning game.

Nothing is perfect. There arise situations when you end up fighting/disagreeing with those very people and everyone involved is very hurt. It hurts you the most coz it involves the ones you love the most. In the heat of the moment you feel like you don’t like them anymore. You refuse to communicate with them. You feel that things can never be the same between you again. There’s a volcano inside you waiting to erupt. You curse yourself for loving them and trusting them that much. The sense of betrayal is hard to push off. Ego in either of the involved further worsens the situation.

You continue for days like that, missing the person from time to time for you know you can no longer share the things you did before. No other person can take their place. You may find someone else to share the same things in a different way, though it can never be the same. You find yourself in a prison with no walls, bound by the chains of their memories.

You continue to keep your silence, just thinking and not acting to improve the situation or give in to the helplessness of the situation after ‘n’ attempts. You don’t want to love that person anymore, but as Bryan Adams rightly said in one of his songs “When the silence leads to sorrow, you do it all again...all again”

You end up going back to complete your circle of life. Can’t wait to run into their arms, apologize (irrespective of whose fault it was), kiss, hug and make up and get things back to the way they were. You love them no matter how they are, overlooking all their bad qualities, always giving them the one chance over n again.

Truly, Love is Everything yet indeed Nothing.